Passion defines my world, it gives me strength and makes my life worth living. Love is my life quest and I have never been the one to settle for anything less than true, unconditional love. You know what true love feels like?
When you feel butterflies in your stomach just by thinking about the other person, how your breath trembles when you see him and how there’s nothing else you’d rather do than gaze into his eyes for eternity. That’s what I’m looking for and that’s what I want to have and give in return.
All my life I have been searching for someone who will understand me, someone who will appreciate my raw, genuine emotions and love me back with the same intensity. I’ve been told too often that my emotions are too strong and that I’m suffocating my partners, which is why many of my relationships have failed.
But how can true love come off as aggressive or too strong when there’s no other way to express it?
This has always troubled me and it has made me question myself many times. But as I grew older I finally understood that it’s not about me, it’s about them. I am not at fault, they are, because they can’t understand what true love feels like.
I will not let anyone discourage me on my quest to find the person who will finally understand me, someone who will share my desires and will share my vision for love. My only mistake all this time has been that I’ve been picking out the wrong people.
But I won’t let them make me feel ashamed for who I am. The right person will know to respect my love and to appreciate it. Until I find the right person for me I won’t be ashamed of my intense emotions.
I will not be at fault for their immature behavior and I won’t let them make me feel bad about my feelings. Just because I’m searching for true love it doesn’t mean that I’m desperate and ready to accept anything they give me.
It means that I want to believe they’re worthy of my love but if they prove me wrong I will simply leave and never look back. If they can’t see me for who I am, if they can’t commit in the way I need them to, I will not adapt and change, I will move on and find someone worthy of me.
If everyone just treated people then way they want to be treated, the world would be a much better place, a much different place. I live by this rule and I will never change.
If the person I am with at the moment can’t accept this, I will find another person who will. There will come a time when I meet someone who will treat me the way I deserve and will show me the love I need.
If the person I am with wants to play games and play hard to get, he can simply move on and find a person who will accept this. I most certainly will not. I have never been one to play games because I am a mature person who knows what she wants.
I want a guy who will be up front and open with me and who will not be afraid to share his feelings with me. Someone who will take me in his arms and whisper sweet things to me, hold me until the world around us disappears in silence.
If you’re not interested in this, just walk away. If you think I’m emotionally attached and too clingy when I fall in love, simply walk away, leave and let me find someone who will think differently. Because if you don’t, I will, once I feel that you’re not loving me back the way I need to be loved.