One of the worst feelings you can experience is the feeling of betrayal. Having trusted someone enough to open up to them about a past hurtful relationship, just for them to turn around and hurt you in the same way.
Letting your guard down and trusting someone enough to not hurt you is an amazing feeling, but also the scariest. Everything in you wants to believe that they won't hurt you.
You tend to give yourself wholeheartedly because you love hard and give people in your life the benefit of the doubt. You trust them until they give you a reason not to.
You tend to hold on to love much longer than you should. No matter how much pride and love you have for yourself, you have as much pride and love for someone you choose to love, for you love is a decision.
That's why being betrayed by someone you've given your heart to hurts so much, because you trusted them enough to be vulnerable. Nothing hurts more than being disappointed by the single person you thought would never hurt you.
Being deeply hurt changes you in ways you could never imagine. Sometimes, being hurt too many times, doesn't make you stronger, it destroys who you were, and makes you who you are today.
One of the hardest things you'll ever have to do is accept the reality that just because you love them, that doesn't mean that they can walk with you.
The one who hurts you is the one that you need to thank. If it wasn't for their poking, you would have kept on accepting conditions that contradicted your position. If it wasn't for their behavior you would have kept believing in them. If they didn't show you who they were, you would have kept believing that they were somebody else.
Had they not kept throwing you away, you would not have the wisdom to know when you're being recycled. Because they disrespected your value, now you fully appreciate your worth.
It doesn't hurt because they didn't love you. It hurts because you thought they did. You thought forever meant the same to them that it means to you. You thought they were strong enough to fight through anything to keep from losing everything.
You thought they would never leave. You thought when they said you were the best one that that meant you were going to be the last one.
Apologize to yourself for not knowing what you didn't know and promise yourself to use your new degree to love in the future.
Time proves if we're right or wrong about someone, not how much we love them. Time helps us to weed out the wrong one's. Time gives the wrong one's the opportunity to crack, to break, to show their true self. Time gives people the opportunity to show us who they are, regardless of what our expectations are.
Get intimate with you, get your life back, find your happiness being in your own company, with quality friends and slowly, start draining the poison of giving the right love to the wrong person.